Father, father, come see what I've built

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 09:26:00 GMT

I just saw my life planned out before me and honestly, I don't have time time to waste.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 07:57:40 GMT

If there's one thing I learned from all my years of being alive is that people are full of empty threats and usually two-thirds of those threats involve the Internet in some way. The main reason why I make my journal public is for fools to try and act like tough guys only to be made fun of and riduculed. Learn to man up and stop being a fag.

And fuck you Lizzy McGuire, I'm going to use gay as an insult and there's nothing your unrealistic picture-perfect bubblegum world can do about it.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 06:05:11 GMT

I hate it when I get this feeling, when there's trouble paying the bills and my mom just flat out becomes ignorant about it. I need to get a good second job and I'm most probably going to have to drop out of college. It's wasting my time anyway.

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 19:26:46 GMT

I didn't take any pictures at the Fest, but besides the group photo with Space Station 5 and company, I was lurking and found some pictures I got caught in during Comadre's set. The Fest was fucking great, this was exactly the thing I needed to satisfy my hunger for a good show. It was seriously my only chance to see bands that would most likely never step foot in Miami. Everyone was so cool up there. Nobody was acting tough, everyone was nice as shit, random people would talk to you in line and talk about the coolest shit (met somebody from Australia, Canada and Europe). Just for being up there my spirits got lifted & I've been in a good mood ever since. I will probably never stop listening to hardcore ever. I live for this shit.

Last day in Gainesville. It was cold as fuck.

Coliseum- True Quiet/Last Wave 7". I saw this band last year when I went to go see Converge in Orlando. Their music didn't really get to me much but I listened to a couple of their albums and they're pretty tight. They killed it at the Fest, I had metal neck the day after them because of them.

Iron Lung- Exposed 7". This was one of the few bands I missed because the lines were so fucking long. Although when I talked to the drummer, he told me they're going to do a Florida tour soon and for sure they're going to play in Miami (they played once before at a house party, which bummed me out because this would be the second time I missed them).

Ampere/Ringers split 7" & Ampere/Sinaloa split 12". I've heard of this band a couple of times on blogs I go to so I decided to check them out and man did they rule. I went to their merch booth and got this 7" for $3 and their split LP with Sinaloa for $7. This next part I think only Miguel cares about; what I noticed about this band is that they sounded a lot like Orchid. I mentioned it to their drummer and he told me that their guitarist was actually IN Orchid and that both of them are in FAILURES. He asked me where I was from and then told me Failures is actually going to play a show down here. So fucking stoked.

Comadre- Burn Your Bones 12" with CD and DVD & A Wolf Ticket. This is one of my favorite bands and some of the coolest dudes ever. I was talking to the bassist pretty much the whole time I was at the venue and he gave me a free shirt.

Pulling Teeth- Paranoid Delusions/Paradise Illusions LP. This was another band I was REALLY stoked on seeing. I knew every song minus the Ink and Dagger cover and their guitarist hooked me up with a shirt that was designed by the dude that does Slayer's shirts for $10 (it was $12, but that $2 difference bought me a fucking beer). I don't know if you can tell in that picture but the records color is a crystal clear blue and this has to be one of the most beautiful records I own.

P.S. If you're ever in Gainesville, go eat at Boca Fiesta. Best fucking burritos ever. Ex drummer from Against Me! owns it and he's always walking around singing "I Still Love You, Julie". Nah I'm kidding about that last part.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 07:02:54 GMT

The trash has been taken out, only a couple of bags left. Good thing too, it left a bad smell.

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 23:00:55 GMT

Getting back together with someone for the sake of getting back together is never worth it. I'm talking from personal experience and I've seen this countless of times with my friend Jose, who's done it with the same girl for four years. It never works out, the arguments are endless, and you end up questioning whether all of this wasted effort is for something. If it didn't work out the first time, it's not going to work out a second. Exorcise those feelings for that person in order for the both of you to MOVE ON. Life is just trial and error. You've tried this once and it didn't work out. Get over your insecurities of finding someone else and MOVE ON.

Don't settle for mediocrity.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 07:48:00 GMT

God damn it.

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Mon, 12 Oct 2009 07:28:26 GMT

I am going to release so much energy at The Fest. This...this is going to be my outlet for the year. Everything that has stressed ne out, gotten me angry, just ANYTHING that has made me feel other than happy will all be put out there. I am going to be drunk, have a great fucking time drunk, and forget that I even live in Miami.

This city is trash and I want to see it ruins.

P.S. Remember what I said last night about one of the few times I believe in God? Yeah, you're a living example of an angel.

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Thu, 24 Sep 2009 21:03:04 GMT

I need to get out of Miami so I can participate in shit like this.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 05:39:13 GMT

Man if financial aid doesn't come through I am going to be pissed.

Also, why can't people be more like

inb4amillionrepliesofpeoplemakingthemselveslookstupid

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 06:59:31 GMT

To me, the key to a good relationship has to be communication. You have to understand each other, not in a "tell me what's wrong with you so you can shut up" way, but more of a "let me put myself in your shoes" kind of way. Listening is good, for starters. You always have to maintain a positive tunnel for information to flow through your ears. That was a shitty way to say it but that's the only way I can explain it. You can never be negative all the time or be quick to put the other person down for something they said you think is stupid. Women take everything very personally, although they say they don't, they really, really do. There's a way around the "watch what you say around her" part of the relationship that makes your point seem rather valuable to her than dismissive or mean.

In order to understand women, you can't think like a man or think like a woman. You have to act like a scientist and observe. Studying what a woman does or how they behave you learn how to act around a woman, not saying you have to be "fake", but I'm also telling you not to be "real" either. If there was a word for it I'd say it, but it's three AM and I'm writing out of my ass.

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Thu, 27 Aug 2009 05:11:25 GMT

If that dream I had months ago comes to fruition, I can officially predict the future like Ms. Cleo.

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Wed, 26 Aug 2009 06:59:40 GMT

Younger kids have no heart, nor respect for anything. They want everything in a silver platter because they think the world owes it to them in some twisted way.

The world doesn't owe you anything, you bunch of assholes.

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Mon, 24 Aug 2009 06:19:23 GMT

This weekend ruled. Hard.

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 08:13:31 GMT

Every time I listen to David Bowie it will always remind me of you. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't get in such a pissy mood with you sometimes. You're great at everything but trying to prove me wrong, but I still love you no matter what.

I just got off the phone with you. Its shit like that that makes me appreciate you more, calling me for a text I sent saying I missed you. There are times where I think you're my only true friend, and that even if we weren't in a relationship you'd still appreciate my company. What's even cooler is that you're not even close to the stupidity that surrounds you and bothers you on a daily basis. You're the only 19 yr old I know that's not a pretentious snob, petty bitch or fucking moron that I hear about (mostly from you) and that is fucking great. I love it that you're your own person, you're not an attention craving asshat or a needy dog that thinks that the world owes them something. You're so faaaaaaaaar from the people you surround yourself with and that's what I think is your appeal. An individual, and that's what I think we find common ground in. Individuality, separating ourselves from the norm etc etc.

I'm sleepy, so this is probably going to look stupid, but idc this is an appreesh post and this is for you.

I'm alright now, thanks for asking.

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 06:50:41 GMT

Yesterday was my dads two year deathiversary. I don't think that's the right word for it, but uh idc. I still miss him a lot and every time I hear of the things he used to I hold in tears. The day before I couldn't. Two years worth of sorrow came flowing out of me like a dam. Is this how its going to be every year?

Fuck why am I writing this here?

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 09:11:51 GMT

Sometimes I really wonder how people put up with me. I've grown to have nothing in common with any of you anymore. I'm like a ghost sometimes, a figment of your imagination that lives on the Internet through Facebook, Twitter etc.

No, I haven't been lost, you just forgot about me. It's not your fault, I isolate myself on a bi-weekly basis. Imagine if I had a job, you'd probably think I got shipped to Iraq or something.

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Thu, 30 Jul 2009 18:56:48 GMT

When someone around your age dies its such a shock. Some people don't deserve the death that's given them. I don't know it feels like God cheats people out of living their lives to the fullest, but for what? So we can fear him and wake up the realization that our lives can be cut short anytime he wants them to? It's always the ones you never expect, but the ones that DO live their lives recklessly will probably outlive the lifespan given to them.

Life just isn't fair. If I'm going to die young, I want to die shooting somebody, doing something that has to do with my detective work, helping somebody or dying for SOMETHING THAT'S WORTH DYING FOR. I don't want my life to be knocked off like a chess piece in some fucked up game of chess.

But that's what we all are. We're all chess pieces in a fucked up game of chess and the only player is God.

History reshits itself

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 01:20:34 GMT

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 14:46:37 GMT

I don't think I'm ever going to stop being angry, ever. Which is kind of scary because I'm afraid that's going to be the death of me. I can just imagine the conversation when my body's at the morgue.

"Holy shit take a look at this case."
"Good God...what'd he die of?"
"According to the coroner, he died from being pissed off all the time. His anger gave him a brain aneurysm."
"Jesus. Did he suffer?"
"Yeah he suffered but thats what he gets for being a jerkoff."

I need to chill out.

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 18:51:35 GMT

I love Youtube for shit like this.

Skip to 1:35

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:59:03 GMT

"New As Cities Burn: bunch of whiny Christians talkin the same old story about Jesus and God and the kingdom of heaven and shit"

~~"I give it another three years before these bands break up"~~

Boom. One down, four to go.

http://www.decoymusic.com/news_posts/26792

Why are you such an asshole?

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 01:07:34 GMT

Sometimes I wonder, is it me that has shitty music tastes? All I listen to are branches of hardcore punk no one down here likes and everyone is into shit I got over. The bands I like are either A) broken up or B) never want to come down here. "All Diego listens to is what he considers thrash and grind and hardcore punk, like Throwdown or Know the Score." <-- LOL. All the local bands that play down here play shit that makes me want to fucking puke, or seriously laugh at. You know, like one of those laughs where you make that face as in you're in pain. The only local band that even comes close to playing what I like is Handgun, Torche, Mehakago N.T...trying to think of more bands...uh, nope. That's it. So what does that say about me really? Does it mean that I have really shitty music taste? Or that what the kids listen to is pure horse manure? Today, I finally got my answer after I stumbled onto this gem.

http://vimeo.com/4207689

This has got to be, one of the WORST music videos I have ever seen in my entire life, with emphasis on THE and WORST. I seriously thought this band broke up, but then I see Perez Hilton and Fez' love child screaming into a mic and I go "what the Hell? There's another member of this fucking band? This shit is slowly going to turn into a Slipknot cover band, and if it did, it'd be way better than what they're playing." But the music is the least of this videos problems. Let's see you got

Shitty grade school editing: Check
The obligatory "Two Lovers in Turmoil" plot that has nothing to do with the music: Check
The most unenthusiastic headbanging in the history of music videos: Check
"Tough guy face" bass player: Check
V necks:
Check
The grand finale, hard hitting in-your-face breakdown at the end: Check

Yep, this music video blows. If Miami is going to known for this kind of shit, then count me the fuck out. Anyone part of whatever Miami considers a scene would think I'm an abomination to whatever it considers a scene. Which brings me to my concluding point.

Miguel called me up the other day asking if I considered myself punk. I answered him with this "I don't dress like a punk or look the part, but my mentality from what I consider it, is as punk as it gets." Before, I never really understood what it meant to be a punk. I thought it was all mohawks, aryan wear, skateboards and fedora hats. Being a part of a punk subculture showed me it has nothing to do with any of that, its all one big message and that message is not giving a fuck. I don't care if this band if full of "nice guys", when it comes down to it I'm just saying what everybody's thinking, this band sucks.

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 00:43:43 GMT

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 05:17:46 GMT

I'm tired of this constant battle of respect going on in my house. It's always fucking something and I'm just getting fucking sick of it.